ok today seem to hv so much to blog about.
feeling real blue now.
went ag home. saw joelyn. so miss her! glad to see tat she's doing ok.. at least ag is so much better den gracehaven can. but the payment is oso quite high lah. dere aft, hurried to town to mit keon and the rest. *he drove. ok lah his drivin not bad.. juz tat dere was a small jerk at 1 point in tym. -luff.
nua at keon's place. really nua. watch tv til fall aslp. *he sayang me and tat's partly y i could really fall aslp lah. haha. he's really nice, but, oh wells.
thinking abt everything juz brings me tat fark feeling. it irritates me, it turns me off, most of all, it hurts me.
my heart is numb but not numb. tat feeling is stucked in the middle. and its shit. really shit. arghh.
den aft tat hurried back to town to mit nic and the rest to celebrate her bdae. collected my jeans too. oh yes, cartel's food is ever so expensive. it seems tat their prices gone up again! -sickening.
surprised nic wif bdae cake. she was really happy. can tell tat. cheryl and nic is really sweet couple eh. wish them al the best.
really glad everyone enjoyed themselves very much. cud tell frm their faces.
wat is evn so more happy thing is tat i finally saw swan! its lk million years! ohmy!
yes hugged and kissed her on the cheeks. love her to bits. tho so, i could feel the drift alrd. sigh.
it pains my heart so much whnever those u really love and are concern abt starts to leave yr life.. starts to fade off in this walk to remember.
and whn im home.. got to noe tat tmr joelle is gg court. ok this is a terrible news. i regret not gg to temple wif her. i really miss her so much. i wish tat everything wil be ok for her. i noe she's scared too, i noe she's losing hope. but no matter wat, girl u wil always be in my heart. do take care no matter wat happen. u'll be in my prayers.
lastly, he's not replyin me. guess he's really chionging his assignments. same for myself, i nid to chiong my tutorials, my projs. life is takin a route of change this yr. at least i hope. dere's so many things tat wil be diff this yr. frm the start it alrd changed. and i noe things wil nv b back the same. this coming 12 mths, is gg to be a test. if i can get over this 12 mths, the following 12 mths, 24 mths, rest of my life, i blif i wil find the strength, or the ability, the mind power, to deal wif the changes.
im feeling really tired mentally, emotionally. i wish to be away frm everything. i wish tat dere cud be someone i can walk wif, to ease the pain in my heart. someone who can b dere to hug me..
never believing in love again-